Can't believe it's been more than 3 years since I last posted. Still no followers. Job still sucks. Weight has stayed steady. Got back down to 117 but crept back up and stayed at 130.   At least body composition is better and am no longer really all that concerned about my body. What I am concerned about is the craptastic direction my life has taken.  I still personal train part-time but I also have another job in the mornings that I absolutely hate. It sucks the life out of me. The pay is horrible.

And my life at home isnt great either. I am more than a backslidden personal trainer...I sometimes feel like a rotten human being. I'm the other woman. Have been one for years. That's part of the reason my exhusband got primary custody of my son is because he found out I cheated on him. I was a fool. I threw my family away for what?

To be a mistress to a married man.

2009, 2010, 2011, 2012,2013..still a mistress.

And at night I sleep alone by myself in a small apartment. Life isn't good.  I know, I made my bed now I have to lie in it. The only thing is..it is hard.

I get to see my son during the weekends which I look forward to. I just hate my money situation. I want to make the weekends great when he is with me, but I can barely afford to get enough groceries when he is here.

I know..i sound like a whiner but no one is following me anyways. Today I make my blog my diary.